I Am Overwhelmed

    I begin to tear up as I look through pictures and prayer journals packing for my next move. Memories dance.

Who am I, oh Lord, that you have brought me so far?

    Whether I choose to follow Christ or not my life is a miracle. (The Hardest Story to Tell) I don’t know the hurt girl in these journal entries. She is a stranger. 

   Meeting me a few years back and meeting me now I only hope people see a change of heart. A woman who’s lifestyle is a walking testimony.

Who am I, oh Lord, that you have brought me so far? 

    I am overwhelmed by Gods grace and how he has restored my heart again and again–how he chooses us again and again. How he fought for our very souls. How we are worth something to him.

Who am I, oh Lord, that you are bringing me so far? 

I feel like David in this prayer. I am so overwhelmed by the Lord’s love.

Psalm 8:3-4

“When I consider your heavens,
    the work of your fingers,
the moon and the stars,
    which you have set in place,
 what is mankind that you are mindful of them,
    human beings that you care for them?”

  God loved us before we came to be. He chose us then, on the cross and is choosing us now.  I am overwhelmed. Despite where I am from, what I have done, the thoughts I’ve thought, the horrible things I have wanted to do, he still wants me. As I allow God to work in my heart, he patiently breaks it, molds it, then breaks it again making me more like him. This is our life long journey he wants to take with us. 

Who am I oh Lord that you are bringing me so far?

Although the constant battles of my flesh hide within my heart; I remember he broke my chains when I chose him. I don’t have to be the old girl of past. She is a stranger. She is dead. She is forgiven. She is redeemed. She is made new. 

Who am I oh Lord that you have brought me so far?

Written July 3rd, 2015

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42 thoughts on “I Am Overwhelmed

  1. This is a truly beautiful post. I feel much the same as you do, a very similar awe. He does indeed choose us again and again, fights for us, breaks and molds us as you so poignantly pointed out. We love Him, because He first loved us.

    Your journey sounds unique and beautiful like your words. Thank you for sharing it with us.

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    • I am very encouraged to hear that! I always wonder if my writings are encouraging others with their walks with Christ.


  2. Beautifully written. When we stop to think about what He has done for us, it is truly amazing. What kind of love is that? One that put Himself in harm’s way for one so unworthy. Truly amazing.


  3. Oh, this speaks directly to my heart, Hyla… I have felt that so many times, looking back over journals, thanking God that I am no longer that girl and that He has carried me out of so many sorrows. “Write your story on my heart”, oh Lord, You are so amazing– who You are and what You are able to do. May I never forget!

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  4. What a beautiful testimony of the love of God. Yes, He chooses us over and over. My mind cannot wrap around how deep God’s love goes. I’ve been asking Him to fill my heart with HIS love so I can love those around me with a more perfect love.

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  5. I love this. I love the feeling behind it, and the honesty in the words. I love the scripture you chose (it’s a favorite for me) and the way you connected it to you personal journey in Christ. “Who am I” is a strong thought it internalize, too – and one of my favorite songs (by the Casting Crowns).

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  6. I posted a meme on my facebook page today that hits this on the nail. It said, “I still have a long way to go, But I am already far from where I used to be and I am proud of that.”


  7. God moves in mysterious ways and his love was so amazing and overwhelming that sometimes we cannot believe and understand why is He so good to us even though we do not deserve all the blessings and love that He is giving us.

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  8. This is amazing. God never lets us down especially when we need him most. His blessings come in the most unexpected form but it going to change the way we see our lives and it’s always for the better.

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  9. It is totally normal to feel this way. Believe me, I feel like it almost on an every day basis. The Lord won’t give you more than you can handle though.


  10. What a beautiful post! God’s love and grace are amazing. I, too, get overwhelmed thinking of how far God has brought me. He isn’t finished with us either. He has so much more to do with us and in our lives.

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